Still in shock, Papa K has cancer, its terminal and not looking good.
Its bad enough that Mama K is terminally ill, but this devastating news is hard to comprehend.
Btw Mama & Papa K are Special K's parents, married for over 45years and have experienced enough loss in one year than anyone needs in a lifetime.
Never knew a real dad till I met Papa K!
I am so exhausted by everything going on at once I cant even post all the thoughts and feelings swimming around in my head, concerns for Special K and family, wanting to be strong and be there fr her and any of them should there be anything I can do. I just wish life wasn't so brutal at times. No one deserves to have two parents terminally ill let alone one.
All I can do is try to step outside of my own shit long enough to focus on her and give her what she needs right now, lots of hugs, kisses and a listening ear. I will try to hide my feelings of low mood during this time especially as that is the last thing she needs to have to deal with right now, other things are more important.
Well LO is sleeping and I am not feeling like a ray of sunshine so off to mong out for a bit and try to stop eating!!! Since Special K has been away I have abandoned the INSANITY workout plan and opted for comfort food, i have no other vices so.....
I am glad to be able to vent somewhere where I can just say what i am feeling without worrying that I am being a burden to anyone, I so often feel that I am.
Anyway.....Signing off for now....
