Happier moods....

Tomorrow I am off to see the amazing P.I.N.K in concert.

I saw her for the first time last year on 4th Dec 2006 even though I have been and "Admirer" since her first album dropped back in 2000. I say " Admirer" simply because I do not class myself as a "fan-atic", I had never seen her live before then.

I had seen the 2002 Brixton gig televised about 2003 on Channel 4 I think it was at about 1am and I was just enthralled, I thought then she was amazing and I wished I had known about it so I could get tickets.....and now.. Woohooo she is doing it again.

I heard there is an 'After party' on the following night after the second Brixton Gig but I am not sure if I should go, the chances of her being there are probably very low/non-existent anyway.

I am not going to the 'V Festival', to be honest I would only be going to see her and at least at Brixton I will get up close - well closer than if I was in a big park. I am not one for festivals I dont like getting muddy and dirty and stuff..ewwww Me? Glastonbury? NO way

I guess the only thing I wish nowadays is that I had my old music connections, I got used to being spoilt and going backstage and meeting the celebs/performers, I have met Mary J -ust so sexy Blige, Joe, Nia Long, Bobby Brown, Ralph Tresvant, Bell Biv Devoe, Whitney Houston, James JT Taylor of Kool and the Gang, Busta Rhymes, Teddy Riley and Blackstreet, Brownstone, Genuine, Donnell Jones, ...oh man the list. Anway as you may have noticed they are all Hip-Hop or R'n'B artists from a little while back so my list needs a little updating.

I miss those days sometimes.....

I used to be able to blag myself backstage in them days, oh the good ole days. Well I am going with SB she wants to come with me after all, I am glad, at least I now know she doesn't think me a 'Skank'. She has been quite nice actually and we are going back to the counsellor next week, fingers crossed we get it all sorted.

I am having the weirdest feelings, I don't know if it is the drug Clomid or if I am pg but I get dull cramps in the area of my ovaries and I have been feeling really tired as of late, maybe it's emotional stress making me physically tired, Oh my favorite one... Maybe it's wind.

My Mate KJ who in my last post ran into a Deer and asked me to be a character reference

Yeah she runs over Deer but she is sound...Honest

Well bless her cottons she sent me a pair of cinema tickets to watch a movie of my choice just to say thank you for being a friend.....woohoo HOSTEL II here I come.

God the first one is horrible I managed to talk SB out of going to that place in eastern Europe with her Ex just before we got back together the last time, and just to convince her further I made her watch it......she hates Horrors.. Mwaaahaaahaaaa, needless to say she didn't go much to the bewilderment of her Ex LOL...Oh well.. they were breaking up anyway... nothing to do with me I will add

I have a weird dull headache today, I think it is because I ate an apple on an empty stomach and the acid gives me a headache, they are playing Amy Wino on the radio... I used to like her stuff but now I just think she is sooooo OVERRATED.

Well to be honest, today I don't have that much to say.... since I started this blog I find myself thinking

Ooh I can add that to my blog next time I update

But I always forget. I guess I hope that it will be an interesting read but starting to think... " maybe I am not that interesting" ahh well it's early days yet :o)

Went into Mac D's today at lunch with my Ma' after a meeting, you wouldn't usually catch me in Mac D's unless I was getting a Milkshake, I don't like their food but it was quick and my Ma likes it so I decided to take her, well got the New BBQ Chicken burger with Bacon thingy meal at the extortionate price of £4.09 or something near that, a little more I think cos I got a hot chocolate instead of a cold drink anyway.... Sat down to eat mine ate the chips first - as you do cos they don't taste too great cold, took one bite of my burger and noticed a hair in it... EWWWW...

I promptly took it back and pointed it out to the Manager who apologised and replaced it for a fresh( plus fries) one made by himself and he also gave my my money back.. RESULT.

I wouldn't buy it again though, I thought it was naff, slightly bland, far too much Mayo and I didn't like the cheese... ah well at least now I know right :o) Anyway going into the station I heard a saxophone playing busker on the underground so as I passed him I gave him some of the money I got back from my meal.

I really want to go home tonight not feeling well but told someone I would meet them as they are really looking forward to meeting me, I have reservations about her, sounds like she talks the talk but not so sure she can walk the walk, I don't like women too eager anyway I am not meeting her in a sexual way or any intentions of, she is just another person I was approached by when I was looking and now I have told her I am no longer looking she still wants to meet as friends.

I think I should try and go...

I had an argument with my then Sub a few days ago, she wrote something about me that really hurt my feelings simply because she wanted to fuck and I had stuff going on with the ex shortly after we met and had great sex. I was more hurt because she acted like she understood but really was only giving 'Lip service' to get what she wanted.

So I don't feel like talking to her for a little while seeing as it is not the first time she has posted something negative about me in her blog for no reason other than the fact I cant spend as much time with her as she would like due to being emotionally somewhere else.

She knew my ex was on the scene before we got together I told her we were going to couple counselling to sort things out and i didn't know what the future held but in the mean time I was going to have some fun. She said she has feelings for me or could have .. something like that anyway... that's the last thing I want from anyone right now but I can sort of understand where she is coming from, if I was not in such a bind emotionally I would probably ...... But then again I am almost 30 and she is only 21.

Well Bye for now, maybe something amazing will happen soon, if my period doesn't show by Friday/Sat then well..... who knows it has played tricks before ... but lets see huh.

Off to get some Fresh Strawberries & cream from the office kitchen as it was the Director's Bday and we all get to stuff our faces with sweetness....

See you on the next post and I will have some PINK pics for ya.. xx