Well since the last post i have looked up more volunteer places to help out, one of which being a lgbt helpline and also the samaritans helpline.
I am counting down to the time she arrives, and she says she has 3 surprises for me, oh my I will let you know what they are, she sent me a little butterfly last night in the post with reference to something we said about butterflies and me. longstory but she is really thoughtful.
Soo excited I am. Gonna get my home work done tominght as I know that I wont have time to so it before monday and I may forget. I am cacking it she is going to meet my mum on sunday arrgghhhh!!! anyway.
I am feeling positive that this is summin special, but who knows. on reflection it all seems very weird and very quick as my life went from near suicidal to doing a full 180 and all highs, i am still taking my tabs and i dont feel at all unstable LOL, aside from giddy with love.
I went through a period of time thinking that maybe this was just my way of coping and was i running into the arms of the first person who came along but that is not the case, but i did do some soul searching. I had to tell the Floridian that i couldnt be what she wanted, i couldnt she was not the one for me, i couldnt tell her I loved her and she wanted that from me even though i said that i didnt want a relationship when we first started talking. We still talk and she is dating someone else so its all ok.
My ex is asking about me alot and my best mate tells me she is still missing me even though she is seeing someone else, i am really glad she is happy with another at least i hope she is. just so she is out of my business. Although secretly i would love her to see my new bird by accident as she is Gooooooooooooooooooooooooooorrrrgeous, striking blue eyes and dark hair 6ft tall super fit and sexy looks great in a bikini heehee and so stunning she once got a snog from a famous celebrity who is so sexy with an even more famous sister.
as well as being really drop dead gorgeous I cant believe my luck she has the kindest warmest heart i have ever come across. And she found me. wow. I feel so blessed. And the sex is amazing fucking hell i didnt think i could get better sex but she is so good LOL. why was she single? I was wondering when i realised how great she was, then i remembered she has just come out of a 9 year relationship with a woman that she didnt love anymore and they both agreed it should have ended years ago but they stayed loyal anyway. When i met her she was just lookiong for mates.
Anyway enough about her for now as i can feel myself gushing and getting all mushy.
I am off home now to pamper myself and do my nails and change the bedding and make the house all nice and tidy. so glad i am working the morning so time will go quickly i cant believe the day is finally here it feels like months since i last saw her, it was only 3 weeks ago LOL.
My LCD 32" tv had to be taken today so i am a little bereft LOL as i have no tv in my bedroom now but hey !!! I am not complaining just hope they can fix it. But some how i doubt i will miss it this weekend ;o)
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