Well I am so relaxed I think I am about to fall off my chair and melt into the floor.
Saturday was wonderful, went to see the psychic and as I sat in her very normal and warm family home with its sweet fragrance I relalised that this woman was as unsuspecting as you could get, entering her living room was a woman sitting on a couch readinga take take a break and on closer inspection from the corner of my she appeared to be a member of the "Community" and it transpires she was waiting for her partner who was having a reading.
When my turn arrived i was greeted warmly by a lovely full of life woman with the friendliest of faces, she usehered me into the kitchen and asked me to sit down and shuffle the cards and cut them into three, she then inserted a blank tape into the recorder. My reading began.
Laying the first set of cards out from the top of the deck she commented on my amazing growth as a person in the last few years and that she saw lost of positive things for me, I kept quiet not wanting to give anything away, she went on to tell me the most amazing things, I was definately with the right partner this one was a gem who really believed in me and loved me dearly, she said i can see an ex and " boy you couldnt have chosen qanyone more different a true jekyll and Hyde" in fact she went on to say " this person I can see has three heads and god only knows how manmy more they had" at this I giggled.
She went on to say that my rainbow would be complete and that I am going to have a baby boy and also adopt one ( which I had been thinking about for years anyway), she also said that she can see me and my partner are not living together and that we would be soon but still ahve two properties and we would be financially stable and able to make choices, she also stated very matter of a factly that we were going to work in the same field but that we should not work with the same age group as there would be conflict. She told me things about my grandma I dindt know until i told my muma nd my mum said YES that is true no one knows that but me ( being the oldest my mum would know) also she said that the women in my family that had passed on were cheering as I was making choices that they never had and also I had broken the mold and they were rejoicing.
She talked about my dad and said a lot of very specific things that no one would know, she also said alot of things about my girlfriend that no one knew but her and when i told her she was shocked. Now i want to just say once again all i said through the entire reading was yes and no and the only no was regarding my girlfriends family and something that I didnt know but later was true. In all with scepticism this woman was 99.9% accurate and all of the things she said that I didnt know my mum confirmed. She also said that my brother was going to be highly successful but grounded and that he will go very far in life because of his good nature and focus.
She also said that she see's me and my partner exchanging rings of some sort but she wasnt sure if it was ina church or on a mountain but it was unusual and very significant as it was a commitment of our love for eachother, little does she know we were already thinking about doing that and just trying to see where we wanted to do it but left the idea until more time had passed.
she also said i was the kind of person that would cry at the end of watching sports relief as I would find it hard understanding why people had to suffer in the world. she is right I once cried watching Crimewatch.
She told me also before i said a word that I wouldnt be able to have children now as my hormone levels needed looking at and my mouth gapped open how could she know.
SORRY I Forgot to post this as i was at work and it sat in my draft box.
Today i am having a champagne lunch and then off to see my beautiful g/f with a big heart. I have put a couple videos on my MP£ player to watch on the train journey and hopping to nab a bottle of bubbly for the weekend...we'll see :o)
Tuesday 18 March 2008
Friday 14 March 2008
random thoughts and confessions
Bored at work so thought I would pop on here for a few minutes.
Last week when Special K was due to come down I pre booked a taxi 3 hours early to collect her and take her to the station, I also informed this company that she was sick and really needed to make sure she got to the train station on time not to miss her train.
Taxi was booked for 2:15 the journey was only 30 minutes away but they assured me that we had left enough time to get there booking it for that time as her train left at 3:15 so more than enough time.
10 mins late we called the taxi, "he is round the corner" we were told.... ten minutes later still " he is 5 minutes away".. a further 10 minutes later " he is on the next road"... They lied and he wasn't, he was 40 Minutes late I promptly called to speak to the supervisor and was told that it would be looked into, it wasn't anyway I went higher still and almost a week later they have discovered it was their error and I informed them that I would not be letting it go as they had basically made the situation worse and she was on the platform in floods of tears and having to purchase another ticket costing £62.30.
I have since been assured that I will be compensated and that they will get back to me later today to confirm how much. I will keep you posted.
I have also tried to wrangle myself a private room at the hospital after my treatment in June, I will let you know how that goes I waiting for a call back from them to let me know.
Went home last night to the gorgeous aroma of a cooked meal and freshly washed linen.... and a bath waiting for me... OH MY she is just heaven sent. It turned out it was 'Thursday Taco Tango day' and I was served Tacos and had to speak in a Mexican/Spanish accent, she is so funny... Tonight I have been told has a Lambada theme to it.... NUTS? YES!!! we are :o)
We even have alter egos mine is Barbara and hers is Sheba from the story, NOTES On A SCANDAL after watching it together one Sunday evening we found ourselves mimicking the toffy accent and calling each other Barbara and Sheba... (Barbs and Sheebs)..... Its quite funny but I guess you would have to be there to appreciate the subtle differences it has made to our......... vocab-u- larry!!
I cant wait for the weekend to start, she is well enough to go out as i hoped she would be in time for Sunday's treat. YAAAYY!!!!!
I love the fact I don't feel that NEEDY longing for her when we are apart, its nice and I don't get butterflies when I am to see her instead its like I glow from the inside out and feel all warm and loved up, I prefer that feeling Its like my heart grows inside.
I have a confession to make..... I have been spying on the Ex via her emails and finding out all the gossip on her new girlfriend couple that with the gossip from my best mate about what is going on for her I have a very clear picture of how shit her life is and how shallow she is and that nothing has changed, I also realised yes i did love her but was never in love with her and thus felt sorry for her more than anything, how patronising and mean I know but its true.
She regularly asks about me and wants to know who I am seeing and what my life is like and she gets just enough info to let her know I couldn't be happier now.
I shouldn't read her emails that is a terrible invasion of her privacy and to be honest I shall stop because I wouldn't like it done to me but I found her password by sheer accident and even though I try to forget it I cant, I don't think I do it because I actually care, I think it is just my way of having one over on her. It is embarrassing to admit but once you know you can do it, it is hard not do. Let me know in the poll below what you would do.
Bad Blogger Bad Blogger!!!!!!!
Last week when Special K was due to come down I pre booked a taxi 3 hours early to collect her and take her to the station, I also informed this company that she was sick and really needed to make sure she got to the train station on time not to miss her train.
Taxi was booked for 2:15 the journey was only 30 minutes away but they assured me that we had left enough time to get there booking it for that time as her train left at 3:15 so more than enough time.
10 mins late we called the taxi, "he is round the corner" we were told.... ten minutes later still " he is 5 minutes away".. a further 10 minutes later " he is on the next road"... They lied and he wasn't, he was 40 Minutes late I promptly called to speak to the supervisor and was told that it would be looked into, it wasn't anyway I went higher still and almost a week later they have discovered it was their error and I informed them that I would not be letting it go as they had basically made the situation worse and she was on the platform in floods of tears and having to purchase another ticket costing £62.30.
I have since been assured that I will be compensated and that they will get back to me later today to confirm how much. I will keep you posted.
I have also tried to wrangle myself a private room at the hospital after my treatment in June, I will let you know how that goes I waiting for a call back from them to let me know.
Went home last night to the gorgeous aroma of a cooked meal and freshly washed linen.... and a bath waiting for me... OH MY she is just heaven sent. It turned out it was 'Thursday Taco Tango day' and I was served Tacos and had to speak in a Mexican/Spanish accent, she is so funny... Tonight I have been told has a Lambada theme to it.... NUTS? YES!!! we are :o)
We even have alter egos mine is Barbara and hers is Sheba from the story, NOTES On A SCANDAL after watching it together one Sunday evening we found ourselves mimicking the toffy accent and calling each other Barbara and Sheba... (Barbs and Sheebs)..... Its quite funny but I guess you would have to be there to appreciate the subtle differences it has made to our......... vocab-u- larry!!
I cant wait for the weekend to start, she is well enough to go out as i hoped she would be in time for Sunday's treat. YAAAYY!!!!!
I love the fact I don't feel that NEEDY longing for her when we are apart, its nice and I don't get butterflies when I am to see her instead its like I glow from the inside out and feel all warm and loved up, I prefer that feeling Its like my heart grows inside.
I have a confession to make..... I have been spying on the Ex via her emails and finding out all the gossip on her new girlfriend couple that with the gossip from my best mate about what is going on for her I have a very clear picture of how shit her life is and how shallow she is and that nothing has changed, I also realised yes i did love her but was never in love with her and thus felt sorry for her more than anything, how patronising and mean I know but its true.
She regularly asks about me and wants to know who I am seeing and what my life is like and she gets just enough info to let her know I couldn't be happier now.
I shouldn't read her emails that is a terrible invasion of her privacy and to be honest I shall stop because I wouldn't like it done to me but I found her password by sheer accident and even though I try to forget it I cant, I don't think I do it because I actually care, I think it is just my way of having one over on her. It is embarrassing to admit but once you know you can do it, it is hard not do. Let me know in the poll below what you would do.
Bad Blogger Bad Blogger!!!!!!!
Thursday 13 March 2008
Living Vs Existing
I am finally living and not just existing.
Thank you for your comment Ken, it made me smile and also reminded me that I still have readers although I thought I had lost them all due to making my blog password protected earlier...... You are right a healthy skepticism is needed for such things and we all posses some ability, the human error thing is the real clincher though isnt it, some are more wrong than others and even the most experienced can get it wrong, I think the trick is to not live your life by the instruction of others without consulting your self first because in short you know what decidions to make that suit you.
So here is an update.
I am finally appreciating my life and so grateful that I cant help but smile everyday, Special K and I are going great, we have not once fallen out which makes a change from the last one, even though it is still early days but we have been spending lots of time together and having great sex and amazing Scenes together too that really get me going. The visit before last we had so much sex I was sore and boss eyed but every minute of it was fab, for 6 days we shagged everywhere, she at one point fully clothed pinned me down on the dining room table after a night out at a mate of hers for dinner and pulled out a strap-on and did me till I couldn't walk, my knees were so weak, only to continue for another couple of hours in the bedroom upstairs, and that has been generally how we have been.
We laugh so hard we both stop breathing gasping for air, such as the one occasion we were being really serious and out of the blue I accidentally whacked her in the mouth with Mr. Blue causing her to whack me back intentionally with Mr. Green ( a smaller toy of joy) and both of us beating the heck out of each other ( playfully of course) with respective vibrating accessories until one stopped and called time as we rolled around on the bed laughing and me landing on the floor in a paralysed state of laughter.
I often catch my self thinking of her and the time not too long ago that I wanted to take my own life and things were so dark I couldn't see clearly and now....... Now I am so happy the other day back from the Trafford centre where we laughed and giggled, I sat in the car and she said something that made me laugh then the next thing I knew I was bawling my eyes out through sheer happiness and I couldn't stop crying and repeating "I cant believe I am so happy". She just cuddled me and in her Northern accent said " its alright Kid I'm here and you deserve to be happy"...GOD she makes me melt just thinking about her.
She is everything I dreamed of and more but I think I said all that in the last post. Anyway OK back to updating and less mushy stuff... She is currently at mine and I have been nursing her for almost a week she had terrible flu ( not man flu) and I have been nursing her back to health, not sleeping through the night just so I can listen out for her and making her hot honey and lemon at 4am just so she can sooth her throat as the constant coughing was intolerable for her, also making sure the room was a good temperature and generally doing my best to make sure she had all she needed.
Monday I had to go to the hospital for another check up and consultation regarding my infertility, well it is confirmed I have to have what is called an Abdominal Myomectomy... My Fibroids are now so large they are the size of a 16 week old feotus...Niiiiiice!! So this is a big operation that on the down side could mean removal of my womb or a blood transfusion, on the upside a higher chance but no guarantee of me getting pregnant. I will be in hospital for 3 days and have to be off work for about 4 -6weeks ( joy...not)
Anyway it was nice in the appointment because I think the consultant knew we were together as she asked her if she had any questions or worries about me having the procedure even though I introduced her as my mate for moral support. I have a pre assessment on the 14th April and the surgery on the 9th June...... shiting bricks??? You bet your genitals I will be!!!!
On Monday I also had my counselling exam and the week prior I lost my portfolio on the tube ARRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Just the thing you want to happen two weeks before it is due to be handed in as part of your exam :o(..... So having to do another one and make up 3months work in one week. I called TFL lost property but still nothing.. :o(... OH well.......
OOhh I am going to see a psychic (recommended to me) over the weekend and I am taking Special K to a very luxurious london spa for the day to get her back to health, treatments consisting of mud wraps, 30 min aromatherapy massages and generally lazing by the pool, jacuzzi, steam room and saunas being waited on hand and foot and treated like a Queen for the day all for the lovely price of a short holiday in Greece but we don't have that kind of time off work so this will have to do for now, I tried to keep it as a surprise but I couldn't and ended up crumbling under the excitement of it all.
I took her shopping a couple weeks back and bought her some cool trainers and a really nice top, she loved it. I don't spend money on her to make her like me any more than she already does I just have finally found someone who appreciates the way I treat her physically and emotionally and after her Ex well....... lets just say the family thinks I am an angel in disguise and my mother thinks the same about her too.
hmmm... off to think of anything else I may have forgotten, I will try to update this more often.
I re -read the last post and saw a couple things I didn't update.
Chris Rock show ROCKED My brother loved it and so did I, I thougt he was brill.
Mum made a great meal for the first time meeting Special K and they got on like a house on fire, my mum was on top form making us both laugh till all of us choked on our rice N peas. At one point I aske my mum what she thought of my new perfume..... my mums response..... " Hmmmm it... it kinda ... It smells like Cat PISS!!".... OM FUCKING GOD.. NO she didnt my mum just said in front of my new girlfreind that I smelt of cat piss...... I was in shock and special K just wet herself laughing, my mum then wanted me to smell one she liked and in true form I smelt it and said " it smells like sweaty testicles !!!" just to get my own back, to which my mum replied... " yes I like that smell" definantly and as indignant as could be..... Well what do you say to that??? We just all laughed.
It was all in good humour and my mum even moved in for a cuddle and told us to be careful on or night out and thanks for coming. My mum if funny about people she meets for the first time, she didnt like the bitch but never told me that, mum even said Special K was cute and she liked the way she came across, genuine and relaxed, the only thing she wasnt sure about was that she dressed and looked like a boy LOL and had short hair, but I kindly reminded my mum that was how I liked them androgynous.
Thank you for your comment Ken, it made me smile and also reminded me that I still have readers although I thought I had lost them all due to making my blog password protected earlier...... You are right a healthy skepticism is needed for such things and we all posses some ability, the human error thing is the real clincher though isnt it, some are more wrong than others and even the most experienced can get it wrong, I think the trick is to not live your life by the instruction of others without consulting your self first because in short you know what decidions to make that suit you.
So here is an update.
I am finally appreciating my life and so grateful that I cant help but smile everyday, Special K and I are going great, we have not once fallen out which makes a change from the last one, even though it is still early days but we have been spending lots of time together and having great sex and amazing Scenes together too that really get me going. The visit before last we had so much sex I was sore and boss eyed but every minute of it was fab, for 6 days we shagged everywhere, she at one point fully clothed pinned me down on the dining room table after a night out at a mate of hers for dinner and pulled out a strap-on and did me till I couldn't walk, my knees were so weak, only to continue for another couple of hours in the bedroom upstairs, and that has been generally how we have been.
We laugh so hard we both stop breathing gasping for air, such as the one occasion we were being really serious and out of the blue I accidentally whacked her in the mouth with Mr. Blue causing her to whack me back intentionally with Mr. Green ( a smaller toy of joy) and both of us beating the heck out of each other ( playfully of course) with respective vibrating accessories until one stopped and called time as we rolled around on the bed laughing and me landing on the floor in a paralysed state of laughter.
I often catch my self thinking of her and the time not too long ago that I wanted to take my own life and things were so dark I couldn't see clearly and now....... Now I am so happy the other day back from the Trafford centre where we laughed and giggled, I sat in the car and she said something that made me laugh then the next thing I knew I was bawling my eyes out through sheer happiness and I couldn't stop crying and repeating "I cant believe I am so happy". She just cuddled me and in her Northern accent said " its alright Kid I'm here and you deserve to be happy"...GOD she makes me melt just thinking about her.
She is everything I dreamed of and more but I think I said all that in the last post. Anyway OK back to updating and less mushy stuff... She is currently at mine and I have been nursing her for almost a week she had terrible flu ( not man flu) and I have been nursing her back to health, not sleeping through the night just so I can listen out for her and making her hot honey and lemon at 4am just so she can sooth her throat as the constant coughing was intolerable for her, also making sure the room was a good temperature and generally doing my best to make sure she had all she needed.
Monday I had to go to the hospital for another check up and consultation regarding my infertility, well it is confirmed I have to have what is called an Abdominal Myomectomy... My Fibroids are now so large they are the size of a 16 week old feotus...Niiiiiice!! So this is a big operation that on the down side could mean removal of my womb or a blood transfusion, on the upside a higher chance but no guarantee of me getting pregnant. I will be in hospital for 3 days and have to be off work for about 4 -6weeks ( joy...not)
Anyway it was nice in the appointment because I think the consultant knew we were together as she asked her if she had any questions or worries about me having the procedure even though I introduced her as my mate for moral support. I have a pre assessment on the 14th April and the surgery on the 9th June...... shiting bricks??? You bet your genitals I will be!!!!
On Monday I also had my counselling exam and the week prior I lost my portfolio on the tube ARRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Just the thing you want to happen two weeks before it is due to be handed in as part of your exam :o(..... So having to do another one and make up 3months work in one week. I called TFL lost property but still nothing.. :o(... OH well.......
OOhh I am going to see a psychic (recommended to me) over the weekend and I am taking Special K to a very luxurious london spa for the day to get her back to health, treatments consisting of mud wraps, 30 min aromatherapy massages and generally lazing by the pool, jacuzzi, steam room and saunas being waited on hand and foot and treated like a Queen for the day all for the lovely price of a short holiday in Greece but we don't have that kind of time off work so this will have to do for now, I tried to keep it as a surprise but I couldn't and ended up crumbling under the excitement of it all.
I took her shopping a couple weeks back and bought her some cool trainers and a really nice top, she loved it. I don't spend money on her to make her like me any more than she already does I just have finally found someone who appreciates the way I treat her physically and emotionally and after her Ex well....... lets just say the family thinks I am an angel in disguise and my mother thinks the same about her too.
hmmm... off to think of anything else I may have forgotten, I will try to update this more often.
I re -read the last post and saw a couple things I didn't update.
Chris Rock show ROCKED My brother loved it and so did I, I thougt he was brill.
Mum made a great meal for the first time meeting Special K and they got on like a house on fire, my mum was on top form making us both laugh till all of us choked on our rice N peas. At one point I aske my mum what she thought of my new perfume..... my mums response..... " Hmmmm it... it kinda ... It smells like Cat PISS!!".... OM FUCKING GOD.. NO she didnt my mum just said in front of my new girlfreind that I smelt of cat piss...... I was in shock and special K just wet herself laughing, my mum then wanted me to smell one she liked and in true form I smelt it and said " it smells like sweaty testicles !!!" just to get my own back, to which my mum replied... " yes I like that smell" definantly and as indignant as could be..... Well what do you say to that??? We just all laughed.
It was all in good humour and my mum even moved in for a cuddle and told us to be careful on or night out and thanks for coming. My mum if funny about people she meets for the first time, she didnt like the bitch but never told me that, mum even said Special K was cute and she liked the way she came across, genuine and relaxed, the only thing she wasnt sure about was that she dressed and looked like a boy LOL and had short hair, but I kindly reminded my mum that was how I liked them androgynous.
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